When she first met him she thought he was interesting to talk to because he was intelligent and from an entirely different background than hers.  At first she didn’t really feel particularly attracted to him physically, he was better than average looking she thought but she didn’t have any particular physical attraction to him.

He, on the other hand, knew from the first time he met her that they would end up together.  She was different from any other girl he’d ever met.  She was cute, smart, confident and direct in her speech and actions.  She made an impression on him that he didn’t forget.

They met at a social function they both attended which was brought about by a mutual friend of theirs.  He was five years younger than her.  She had recently recovered from a relationship she had been in which she had cared about the man more than she had ever allowed herself do as quickly as she had with ever done with anyone else before in her life and it when it hadn’t worked out she was very wary of relationships in general after she had let her guard down before and had been crushed emotionally after doing so.  So she was not looking for any involvement with anyone for any reason.

It would be six months after that first meeting that they would end up seeing each other again, and once again it was through the same mutual friend they had first met through.  Later they would talk about that friend and both agreed the friend they had in common was a friend who they both had a lot of distrust of for various reasons.  By the time the second meeting occurred she had put her bad relationship behind her and found the man more attractive this time than she had in their previous meeting – but it was still only on a mental level with only an interest in friendship for her.

They had attended a few social events through their mutual friend several times in the next four months and a mutual attraction began to grow between them

One hot July afternoon she called him up to see if he felt like having her come visit and have a  beer or two with her.  He responded enthusiastically so she bought a six pack and went to visit.  When she got there he was thrilled she came over and he asked her if she would like to go for a short drive to out to the country to visit a place where he had just purchased a piece of property.  They went there and had a couple of the beers she had brought and then went back to his house.  They had many interesting conversations and a physical attraction started forming between them.  He finally told her how he felt about her and how attractive he found her and she told him she was interested in him also but she was afraid of getting involved with him because he was fairly inexperienced in relationships and she was afraid of getting hurt again because she always gave too much of herself in a relationship once she committed to it.  She said she would think about what he wanted to have with her, he said he understood and would accept whatever she decided.

In about a week she decided she did want to go ahead and see him romantically.  They had a cautious first date, then went back to her place and made wild passionate love and spent the night together.  She didn’t hear a word from him for about 3 weeks after their first romantic encounter.

He told her he had liked her too much and was afraid of how he felt one they finally saw each other again.

They dated once more after the first sexual encounter but now they were playing something of a distancing game with each other, both of them seemed afraid of committing themselves more than anything else.

Time passes……

As she lay there is his arms she finally felt at peace.  The fear and the pain started fading away and a ghost of hope started growing in the distance.  It was faint but nevertheless it was still there.  This vision had eluded her for so long she hadn’t been sure she would be able to recognize it if it came.

He held her close to his chest and felt her tenseness slowly disappear.  He had felt her fear and hoped that the quietness was a sign that she was winning her battle and was not giving up.

The rain started beating down on the roof of the cabin creating a peaceful rhythmic sound.

They awoke in each other’s arms, neither had moved during the night, sleeping calmly with the sound of the continuous storm outside, but there was calm within.

Then they made love with a passion and electricity that was all enveloping, overtaking every part of their bodies.  Wrapping them in warm and exciting feelings – nothing else existed but their togetherness.  They laid and caressed each other’s bodies for hours, listening to the soft and sexy sounds of the music of acoustic guitars and having their bodies feel like part of the music.

This was everything they had missed and fantasized about in the months they had stayed apart and had tried to get each other out of their lives.  The ups and downs of their affair over the years had built to a crescendo neither was able to handle so they had decided to be just friends and not romantically involved.

They made it for five months but they both thought about each other constantly and wanted to give in.  It was hard to be around each other and to feel the lust and passion and not give in to it.  They both knew it was there but thought it would go away in time.

One afternoon they were visiting at his place and he asked her to just lay there in his arms and she did because she was hoping he would ask.  I felt so good and so right – how could it be wrong?  The feelings seemed even stronger than ever but she was determined to keep only the magic part of their relationship and not let reality ruin that special quality.  She knew they it could never really work for them to be together so why not make the time they did spend together special and have it be an escape from reality?

She knew that no matter what they had together it would eventually have to end because it wasn’t reality and fantasies all end – she just wanted it to last as long as possible and end in the most pleasant way possible.

My lover Tom!

My lover Tom!


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